I just called in sick. I told them that I am not feeling well. My mental health is deteriorating and my mind is not resting. I made two lists, the first one, I just finished a while ago. The second one is I just found somewhere on my drafts a long time ago. I was never a “list” kind of person. I know that I always see it as tips in coping with your mental health but I just always find it too cheesy and unreal. I liked writing poems better or just writing what was in my mind. But now that I did it, and when I found the old list that I made (which I didn’t even know I had one) it helped me to feel better. These past few months I am always bothered by what my future will be and how I want it to be. I am always questioning myself of what to look forward to. Usually it just a series of planning that ends up to nothing and me worrying. There was nothing to look forward to. I just want to share the lists that I made in between different points of my life that made me realize who I am, what I have and what I can look forward to.